My friends this is just too much for me. I am still a single mother.You know I have been an advocate for the poor, disabled, abused, harmed , neglected, animals, children, ect. My entire life. Here in Colorado everyone knows what caused all this. Sorry, I have not had coffee yet. Jake, when he was 5 would become overwhelmed at school. It is apart of SPD. He had an incredible pediatrician that was against putting kids on drugs. He made arrangements for occupational therapy. Said to me just keep doing the OT and change is diet. Well one day, Jake was frustrated, there as an event at school and they punished him by putting him in a padded closet 😦 he freaked out. Did anyone call me NO! then they let him out his flight or fight was so fired up. He was just a little guy 😦 he lashed out at a teacher.
Long story short. The DHS workers came to me and said if I did not medicate Jake they would put him in a residential treatment facility for kids with mental issues, and take him away from me. His pediatrician (who retired when Jake was 5 said NO way, he does not need drugs. I took Jake out of the Medicaid insurance and found a fantastic pediatric psychologist, and to get DHS off my back we agreed to dust Jake with Clonidine.
It was just enough to make the state leave us alone!! My friends this makes me cry. Being a mother is the MEANING of my life! I worked 4- 10 hour shifts in hospital so I could have 3 days off with my son. Later I would just pull 12 hours on the weekend so I could be there to help Jake if his SPD flared up. For the most part Jake was a snuggle bug, and just wanted to be at home with Mom.
As promised by Dr. Beasley with OT Jake grew out of the SPD 50% of the kids do!
The overdose happened at the time we had decided to start weaning Jake off the clonidine! 😦 😦
I shut down my life after the OD, I had a bit of savings and pretty much became a stay at home Mom. I just wanted to stare at my son’s face I was so happy to have him alive! I am tired my friends. I have been trying to change the US system since I was 14 years old, and they deported my grandparents. (They were my parents) I enrolled in military school. My grandparent thought my chances for opportunity would be better in the USA 😦
I never counted on people to help me, I worked hard!
My lovely career at Colorado State University. Did not want the media attention, they put me on unpaid leave in January. They won’t even respond to my emails.
I sold my home and spent every penny over 50 grand fighting this battle!
We live in a town with no real bus system. My #one ranked law firm knew my life was falling apart and they “BRACE yourself”….TOOK a pay out to mess withy the case form the inside Leventhal and PUGA!
It was the news reporter that found out! That was a crushing blow since my main attorney was a Marine Alex Wilscke 😦 I cam barreling down on them How could they!
NO ATTORNEY WANTS THIS CASE AT ALL!
I have been told by many people in power, Caroline you do not need an attorney. You know the law, and medicine better than any attorney you can hire.
You bet the coroner swapped Jakes samples they are not his, but they will not give them to me, because they know I will DNA sample them, I have called the FBI and the CIA myself!
You bet I wanted follow up care for Jake after the OD but the umbrella insurance company ordered his new pediatrician, because my favorite retired NOT to see Jake he was a medical liability!
Search engines are filtered in the USA and it was not until I left the country that I found a case of Clonidine causing DIC! When I came back to the USA with this information, I was met with shut doors! They would not listen to me.
The day Jake died, PVH again under the same insurance company let him lay there with no pain meds or heparin! Again because orders were put in place not to treat Jake!
I have nearly lost my mind in this. There is a media black out on the story WHY I can not get one paper, one news source to run the story!
Now I sit here using my neighbor wifi, mine has been disconnected. They have done their best to break my communication. 911 even told me not to call them! The FBI said, it is a local matter BUT again. The county and the police will not respond to my calls!
Sojourner told me months ago. Stop Caroline and save yourself. I was sad. I wanted to fight to save other children. I kept on fighting. it is against every fiber in my being to watch anything suffer.
I can’t drive, I have no gas money and I have an eviction notice on my apartment. Again, everything people have known for months!
Since Lasater and Martin are not willing to negotiate the claim. I have to STOP! I have to go back to proving for my surviving children. They need me! This case has been a 24hr/7 day a week job for me with NO pay! The friends I did have ran a long time ago, it is beyond the normal comprehension of the human mind to see corruption and evil to this extent!
SO, WHY DOES EVERYONE THINK A MOM WHO LOST HER BABY AND THEN HAD THE SUYSTEM TAKE MORE THAN THAT FROM HER, CAN LIVE LIKE THIS? MY BRAIN IS RITTLED WITH NIGHT TERRORS FROM WHAT I SAW MY BABY ENDURE, AND ALL THE DOCTORS HERE WANT TO DO IS MEDICATE ME!
There is nothing wrong with me. I saw my child get tortured in front of my eyes and die. I heard my baby’s ribs break during 40 minutes of CPR. That is not something that ever leaves your mind!
Now, I can’t get ONE lawyer to help me! Not one governmental agency! This is insanity! people are so greedy they can not even donate to my Gofund me for pharmacy reform.
This fight is making me physically ill! I can not fight, if I can not even afford to go to the doctor my self!.
I don’t want to quit, but with literally NO support from anyone. I have to protect myself. How can I provide for my family, if I am too sick to even help them?
There is no sense in blogging anymore, the only people who read my blog are in other countries according to my wordpress stats!.
It is called self preservation. Lasater and Martin know that their first offer to settle was highly illegal, but they are playing games. Saying , I need an attorney. No I don’t, it is a legal right to represent yourself!
So blogging about it has gotten me nothing but support from a few fellow bloggers, who I know are just as damaged and poor as me!
I DO read my fellow bloggers websites….well the ones that I know are run by real people and not under aliases.
My motto is, if you are going to blog be the real you!
Thanks my friends for all your support! I will grammar check later, I am too tired today.
This is about human life; it is about how bad US health system is; and it is about if you want to seek your right in US, how the system tools that stand by the tax of the people, can come out as the secret and invisible but powerful weapons against you. It’s the worst…